Thanks to Jan Gold-Dempsey for this post!
We adopted a feral kitten several months ago, and the time for her to start exploring the world outside the house had begun. It was an early Friday evening, and from the window I could watch her enjoying running and hiding in the plants. I decided to go out to enjoy the evening and watch her.
There was a section of old and previously used section of decking, and it was upside down resting on concrete blocks. I thought I had selected a spot where there were no nails, but when I had sat down, I soon realized that I had sat down on some. Because the deck was lower to the ground, I had sat down hard, and getting up off of them required some work. I was startled, frightened and in considerable pain, and went to find my husband for some help. There were four punctures, going front to back between my legs where I sat down.
Although I was holding to the truths I was very familiar with, it was difficult to get past the pain, and the fear. The Lesson that week talked about ‘darkness and light,” and I was knowing that all of me was light, that nothing dark could be overtaking my thought, or harming me. Thoughts of the darkness inside of this body, and any harm or injury done in the darkness inside, did persist in my though, and I did call a practitioner for help.
My husband read to me from the Lesson, and Science and Health with Key to the Scriptures by Mary Baker Eddy, and I did eventually fall asleep for a while. Pain and discomfort woke me up around 3:00 am, and I read an email that my practitioner sent which talked again about the ‘darkness and the light’ which were in the Lesson. I WAS light!
I experienced relief and comfort and again went to sleep. The next day, a Saturday, I was feeling considerably much better. Knowing that I am now and forever a child of God, a perfect reflection of God’s qualities, none of which include worry, fear, pain, I knew that nothing in the picture of me could be anything less that the reflection of perfect harmony.
It was a joyful day of cooking (I love to cook) for the fellowship taking place the next day at church. I knew my perfection and I also knew healing was in fact taking place, but there was something still nagging at my thought. I was questioning whether these internal (in the dark) injuries could in fact be healed. I was questioning what damage could have taken place by these four nails? There was some fear – that fear that the unseen could be cared for and healed.
After church, the enjoyment of the fellowship gathering included talking with the Sunday School children and the rest of the congregation. When I left, I still had a nagging feeling that there was yet something more I needed to understand; something still incomplete in my thought and felt it had to do with doubts that these unseen injuries could really be healed.
I got in my car to leave, I turned to God and simply asked, “Father, what more do I need to know right now?” Well the answer came loud and clear – I was being impressed with the enormity of the injuries! I was being impressed with the impressions of those four nails! I was letting fear impress me, letting what I thought was a ‘humanly scary’ injury give me reason to doubt that healing could take place.
Soon I realized what the real healing was – not recovering from four three inch nails puncturing me, but the knowing that with God ALL things are possible, seen or unseen. With this realization, a floating type of feeling came over me, and I knew with absolute clarity, that I was completely healed. That there could be nothing lingering inside of me to be corrected. That my spirituality is now, and has forever been, perfectly intact, unharmed, and unimpressed. From that moment forward, there was never any indication of an injury.
I am forever grateful for the daily unfolding of God’s greatness, our daily bread, and for this understanding from Mary Baker Eddy.